It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

Texted and asked for the rings back. Probably shouldn't have. But I feel the need to regain some of my dignity from her. Somewhere along the line I handed over my "manhood" to her. I'm a shell. I shouldn't be like this. I gave up a lot of my self to this woman who spits on it now.

She texted back "fine," then said I could have them back when I come by Friday.

I didn't reply. I don't even want to talk to her, to hear her voice. I don't want to be bitter and angry but I don't know if I can forgive the dating site thing. She claimed she didn't like the site and wasn't interested when she originally mentioned it. But she was listed as online when I saw her profile.

Curiosity killed the cat, I guess. I don't know if I'll ever trust her again. I know she told me about it. I know she considers herself divorced but she said such nasty things about being married (called it a hole). She had sexy pictures on there.

I'm just sick of my heart breaking over and over and over.