So Puppy. I read what you said to Die and I am hoping you can help me with something. I know I have gotten through this pretty uickly and my H seems completely committed. I, however am having major trust issues and the physical thing is driving me crazy because that is my love language and I want so bad to be with my H but on Sunday after a great weekend away-just the two of us with limited physical contact-just what I could deal with, I had a major break down. I sunk to the lowest of lows by asking every sorted detail of their sexual relationship. And while my brain was saying shut up my mouth wouldn't stop. It was so bad what I was asking. Anyways, now the visual is so much worse, how do I get past this when I want to be with my husband so bad, but everything that I thought was special between us he shared and did with the OW. How do I get past this. Is it a thing where I am just going to have to let it go and fake it till I make it? He went to care for his Dad who is dying today, in another state and I feel a bit of depression that he is gone but my insecurities are huge. I told my H this because we promised we would share any and all feelings and he says he wished i would have called him earlier in the day, that he is always there for me and he wants to do what he can to eliminate my fears and that he is totally committed and not going anywhere, how do I not have insecure days. He is flying me out this weekend to be with him. He really is trying and I am just doubting. How long does this last and how do I get past it. The worst is the physical part? Any thoughts?
