I also have been in the same situation, where my H had an A. I have totally relied on this site for help. My situation turned around pretty quickly by listening to Puppy and Sandi2. they are wonderful resources to keep the situation real and to help you help yourself. I am 2 weeks into having my H back and he is bending over backwards to make what he did wrong, right. I am very fortunate although I have zero trust and am having serious sex issues given that all I think about is my H with another woman doing to her the things I enjoyed with him. Anyways, keep the faith and really give it up to God and trust a lot of what you hear here by people who have been through the same thing. I believe God heals and I hope time heals too. Stay the course. also, have you tried the phone coaching. It works wonders. The coaches are so good at offering tools and so very caring and loving. Try it.