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[iwantittowork]

Today was one of the hardest days in my life, when you think you have been through the hardest days, more seem to be around the corner.

Oddly though, as well, is feeling like a small weight has been removed from my shoulders.

I have initiated D proceedings myself with my L filing in about a week and a half.

I will be gone from my own home around the weekend of the 10/18 and renting an apartment. I guess I won't really be calling it my home anymore.

After that, I will start paying the child support figure to my W, and she will be responsible for the mortgages and bills on the house.

I will not be telling her about this until I leave, to ensure I am first to file motions and orders.

This goes against everything I 'feel' I should be doing, but for my own emotional and financial health, I know I must do this now, before things get out of hand at home with my WAW. It's for me, not her. In the end, she will get what she wants, just not in the way that she expected.

I am hurting thinking about what my d8 will be going through in the coming weeks, and preparing to help her with that is #1 priority as well.