Stuck in the Middle with You

[RedHeadWife]

Isn't that a song?

Well, we're still married and it seems that it will likely stay that way. We are going on a cruise leaving next weekend from Miami, but . . .

I feel stuck again. Sometimes I don't even like him. I have no sex drive whatsoever.

After everything we've been through and how hard I worked to keep our M together, I haven't forgotten what I need to do, but I feel as if I'm pretty much doing it half-azzed. I feel angry a lot of the times & about what EXACTLY I don't know. It's a conglomeration of everything I guess.

Obviously, I know I need to step up. I've even asked on occasion if he thinks maybe we need some M counseling & I get the question asked back "Do YOU think we need M counseling?"

Life just seems to be flying by. The boys are growing up so fast. The weeks just fly by and the weekends go even faster.

I think I'm kind of depressed too and I don't know if this is causing my way of thinking or if the way I feel right now is the cause of my depression.

I just feel like I'm going through the motions. We do go out on dates regularly these days. I go to the gym pretty much every night after work, but I still have huge hang ups about myself physically which I probably shouldn't. I know it's not THAT bad & he loves my body just the way it is.

Maybe "his needs, her needs with children" or whatever it's called would have some good ideas for me. I need to dig that out. I know we have it somewhere. If he saw me reading it, maybe we could start some sort of R talk that would be helpful.

Suggestions would be great & thanks.