In response to myself we've been here before, but I think that I am a little better at this now. As GIMA mentioned, I need to keep my new GAL attitude if I have any hopes of this sticking. If W goes from 2% me in her life to 100% me all will be lost.
Also, I spent a lot of yesterday monitoring how much I was around W. After the previous day which was nearly constant affection and interaction, I was sure to give her plenty of room and waited for her to come to me. I have plans after work today so that whould help too.
Me: 35 W: 31 S:9 M: 10 years Together 13 MySitch - Ups & Downs She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.
Hey - and when is your computer fixed so we can play scabble?
I'll have to sign up for that game site tonight.
My boss said some snotty comment about the web site that I am "always" on so I'll need to keep off of the board while I am at work.
W's at home and Boss is at work. It's hard to find time/place to get on here lately. I'll just have to come on here at night I guess.
Not much to add to my journal about last night. I went out with my cousins last night. Good dinner. I stayed away from the drinking. W called at one point in the afternoon with a question about a movie character. (Seemed like she was looking for a reason to call). She was in bed when I got home (back to the extra room). She was still awake and said she wasn't feeling well still (stressed out again). Some pullback, but not too much. She came into our(my) room later (another lame excuse why) and I rubbed her neck for a few minutes. She gave me a hug and went back to the other room.
BTW Hope - what book did you come up with?
Me: 35 W: 31 S:9 M: 10 years Together 13 MySitch - Ups & Downs She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.
So she hasn't moved out yet? Why is she back at home?
I wish knew what was going on with her. I don't though.
As far a I know she's planning to go still. This past couple of weeks with lost of loving and affection my mean nothing to her or may be fueling more conflict. I'm just trying to me the best me that I can be.
I may come home to a hug and kiss or she may tell me she got her place today.
She sent me an E-mail asking abt my day today. Good right? I responded and asked about hers...she never responded back.
Still trying to be the best me that I can be. Hope - I know you can relate all too well to swings in attitude.
If I come home to a loving W I will have to keep trying not to scare her off. I have a weird feeling again today though. My weird feelings are usually on, but I will try to keep my PMA.
Me: 35 W: 31 S:9 M: 10 years Together 13 MySitch - Ups & Downs She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.
I came home to a dinner set out for me, but she's een "off" since. ...and now she's on the phone with the GF. I hadn't heard a peep aout the GF in days.
Nothing majorly negative yet...but...
I'll just smile and wave.
Me: 35 W: 31 S:9 M: 10 years Together 13 MySitch - Ups & Downs She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.
