This DB thing isn't working. She is more resolved to divorce me now then ever.
We just had a transition meeting and she was trying to get all of our finances figured out in a one hour meeting. 11 years of debt and two homes with mortgages and she thinks we can figure it out over lunch.
It was emmotional. I was certainly more controlled then I normally would have been, but I certainly was not as close to the model DBer as I would have liked to have been.
I have failed to tell you one important dynamic in this whole thing. I am the Mayor of my community. She is mad because she says people really like me and people are shunning her now. "friends" don't reply to her emails, people whisper behind her back, etc... She said everyone thinks you're such a great guy. I just want out, I want the divorce over and I want it done now.
At that point, I tried to be as level headed as I could. I told her that wasn't all true and that many people have asked about her. I know people have offered to help her; she rejects them and says she is fine. She doesn't talk to others because "they just try to change my mind".
Honestly, two weeks ago I would have been more devestated then I am right now. I don't know how to feel about that. I guess I have taken the long term view on this that no matter what I do today, I am not getting a divorce for 4-8 months. She didn't have the paperwork ready again and when she printed it at home, realized one of the pages needed a notary.
She did tell me that there is nothing for me to sign today, but we need to get it figured out.
She wants the finances seperated ASAP and I told her I would work on it today. She picked the debts that she will take and I picked mine. We were fair.
Her problem is that as the Mayor of my hometown, she feels like the whole town is against her. If you've read this thread, you will know what I have done. It is my fault. However, I didn't have an affair with anyone, emotional or otherwise, but porn is still cheating, I firmly believe that now. Looking at personals was also cheating. I never cooresponded with anyone, but that doesn't matter. She says she doesn't believe there isn't anyone else no matter what I say.
I did look her in the eye and told her the truth. She said to stop, it just makes her more mad. So I stopped and went back to discussing kids, finances, etc...
I'm very sad right now. It kills me to see her so sad and to know it is my fault makes it all the worse.
