I am so sorry for all that has happened to you! This place where you live does NOT seem very good for you. Time to move to greener pastures perhaps? Back to your origins, maybe? Let not this town become your prison. Maybe, go to California, get a better job, near to D?
Realize that you have options, you have choices ---- don't allow others to dictate your life. Not even your children, which they do, perhaps unknowingly, but emotionally.
Perhaps your sore ankle is a sign for your being crippled by your surroundings. You lost your job which I am sure you aren't too upset by, since you hated it. Sometimes, we have to find our own happiness, before we can help others, i.e. your S and D. Denying yourself to give to them, is no help at all. And you are denying yourself to the point of poverty. What next? Homelessness? Start thinking about the mother of your children before they find her living under a bridge.
Take care of you.
PS Sorry for the 2x4 --- it's only because I care.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
