Hey, Grace. Today is a bit better. So far. I honestly think it is partly the weather - yesterday was gray and today isn't. Funny, but weather never used to affect my moods like this. Nothing specific yesterday happened/changed/whatever to throw me off.
It is just so wierd. In some ways I am seeing more and more of my old H in little things, yet the crazy is still there and so it makes the "normal" hard to see in a way. Make sense? It is just hard to reconcile the normal with the crazy, I guess. Yesterday I was just missing the great guy I married. Yet I can see glimpses of him in there lately.
Last night he actually apologized for something (nearly fell out of my chair) - haven't heard those words in forever! It was a little thing and something that has been a normal pattern of behavior which made it even stranger that he said anything.
No big plans for the weekend - hoping to just hang out with the kids and watch movies, etc. Do you have fun planned?
So what is your current status, if you don't mind saying? If you do, that's okay, I get it.
Just checking in on you. Glad you`re having better days. Its hard not to let our MLC spouse affect us.That`s probably the bit I struggle with most.
Mach said "The goal is to become survivors, regardless the outcome...."
Isn`t that just so true? Wow! So, no matter what happens we still get to be better people.
That whole be still,stay calm thing(when I`m calm enough to be able to do it!) really helps me listen to my heart,be more loving towards everyone and live the life I want.
