I called a mediator today. It is the first step i have taken towards D. My H will soon have a place to live and will now take the kids. He is totally in love with OW. I found some letters today and they broke my heart. He says things to her that he never said to me. Why am I fighting for a H who is love with another? Why do I want to hold on to all of this pain. Can i ever forgive him? Will he ever give me the Chance? I hate this. I have my goals but I don't think they will ever be met. He is in love and planning a life with someone else. He doesn't love me anymore. Why do i think he will come back? I need someone to reply to help me. I am totally lost and heartbroken.
