I think I just needed a really big cry! I just couldn't stop crying last night and finally I just went with it....and I feel so much better this morning.
But, you are right exH is the same.........and that is what was really upsetting me....why am I expecting some miraculous change? This is going to be long time in coming. I still think going dark for the month of october may be for the best....why let him in at all? He calls and gets his fix once a week! Yes, I'm getting mine too, but I am going to just try this. I have nothing to lose at this point!
Otherwise, my thighs are killing me from the squats I did last night. It feels good Its been awhile since I worked out. Its a sunny pretty day today...which helps the mood!!
As far as the guy...I don't know...he's trouble. I can smell it 2 football fields away. So, I think I will keep my distance, but...to be honest...I liked the attention. Its a powerful feeling to know that you affect someone in that way!
It's something I used to take for granted with my exH. He was always after me and I was always rolling my eyes...boy, I would NOT react that way again, ever!
OK...gotta get back to work....thanks for your awesome words MJ...I really needed a friend last night and I seem to be out of them these days...at least when it comes to my ex-marriage. Everyone seems to get so uncomfortable around that topic, that I have stopped talking to anyone about it. My one friend who I was talking to is going thru her own split up right now and I dont want to burden her more... so thank you, MJ. Hope you are having a good day! I said a little prayer of thanks this morning to God for getting me to this website....I found it early on...and my situation progressed so quickly, that I am glad I have support here. I am blessed and HE is always with me.
