Yeah, I certainly don't want to go back to what was. I've been depressed for a couple years now I guess and this divorce really threw me into a tailspin; it's hard to pull out of it and stay in a good mood. Thing is, I can see now that being depressed, gloomy, etc. is NOT what she wants to be around. Hard to feel one way and show a different face to everybody but that's what the counseling is for. You are right, it's time to look to the future (or more likeley just take it one day at a time).

Ron

M: 47
W: 50
D: 19
S: 16
Grandson: 21 months (now officially our son)
Married: 10/2/89
Divorced: 7/31/09
XW moved back home 11/12
Re-married 5/25/10