No I will not contact her guys, I don't want to again without talking to you all first.
She did dump me in college, I had nothing to do with her and she came back. I've been telling myself that's what I needed to do, wrong thinking, she knows I can write someone off and I was trying to prove her wrong. She's not looking for proof this time, she's looking for escape, besides the only thing left is the divorce route on her end, which will slow her healing process down even more and destroy my kids.