Today marks 6 weeks since I came back to this site in an attempt to bust our divorce for a second time. I think it would be good for me to try to do a state of the union as objectively as possible.
Goals Met And Other Good Things:
1. My wife is back in our house. 2. I am back in our bed. 3. There has been a couple of cuddles and hugs. 4. She has called me a few times while I am at work. 5. She has invited me to go grocery shopping etc with her. 6. We speak to each other fairly "normally" at times 7. There has been no R talk and she has made no comments about proceeding beyond where we are at this time.
Goals Not Met and Negative Things:
1. Still no good bye hug when she leaves before me in morning. 2. I have not received "a touch" for no reason as part of daily life. 3. No intimacy of any kind. We live like roommates. 4. Wife seems angry at times and very distant. 5. That "feeling" is still there - sometimes I swear I can feel her resentment, anger and frustration. 6. I believe she would be gone if there was an easy way out. 7. She is cold to me most of the time.
So...I suppose things are where they should be expected 6 weeks in. As for me personally, I am far more calm and focused than I was. I am prepared for any outcome and have even thought of the possible good things in a new life as a single man. I am taking better care of myself and doing things I enjoy.
We are still planning on going away for XMAS as usual, so I know nothing major will happen until after that. That means I have at least 3 months to continue my db efforts. Later today I am going to think over the last 6 weeks and re-focus and make sure my work is in the right direction.
