I have to ask you. You mentioned physical abuse and drug abuse in your letter. Please elaborate. I think those are MAJOR issues and I realize you miss your h, but if the above issues were there, even in a small way,those things MUST be addressed before you can even consider getting back together.
I was in an abusive relationship. He didn't hit me daily,really like "only" once a year, but that "feeling" like it could happen any tme was always there. PLEASE get help for YOURSELF if that is the case.
As far as drug or alcohol problems -- is it him or you? If it's him, I HIGHLY suggest al-anon. I don't want to be negative here,but your letter, as lovely as it is, says more to me than you just want him back. It seems like you are willing to bury real issues just for the safety or the seemingly safe feeling of being backwith him. Those issues I mentioned will only surface again anbd again unless addressed.
