So now what?

[Grace_O]

Why argue with a crazy person? I grow weary of crazy.

HUGS

[mountain_west]

I sent her an email explaining our agreement, that I paid the bills, and a copy of the email thread where I gave her my address and she acknowledged it. I got an immediate response from her. She's all sorts of angry. Whatever.

So ... D day arrives this coming Friday, barring an act of God. A judge will just sign the forms and we'll both be notified by mail. Part of me wants to break the silence and send her an email letting her know I'm thinking of her and wish her well. Part of me wants to disappear for awhile. Part of me wants to call and scream at her. Part of me doesn't care. Part of me just wants it over. Part of me is actually excited to start something new. Apparently, I am a man of many parts. Emotionally swirly day. Kinda caught me off guard

[Grace_O]

A person with that many facets must be a diamond.

Hang in there sweetie.

HUGS

[Jimbo]

So ... D day arrives this coming Friday, barring an act of God. A judge will just sign the forms and we'll both be notified by mail. Part of me wants to break the silence and send her an email letting her know I'm thinking of her and wish her well. Part of me wants to disappear for awhile. Part of me wants to call and scream at her. Part of me doesn't care. Part of me just wants it over. Part of me is actually excited to start something new. Apparently, I am a man of many parts. Emotionally swirly day. Kinda caught me off guard

Yup...I know how THAT feels.

I'm around if you want to talk.....

[dl443322]

Hey, of course you are feeling all kinds of emotions. Nothing wrong with that.

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. That's not lip service or platitudes, it is something I feel deep in my soul.

So, while I know that this is not something you want, I know that it is what is supposed to be right now.

MW, I promise you that this journey will be worth it. I promise you that one day you will feel good again.

I will be thinking of you.

[Grace_O]

How are you doing today?

[dl443322]

Hey, MW, thinking of you. Hang in there, my friend.

[mountain_west]

Thanks. Yesterday was just like Monday, emotions all over the place and without warning. It was very odd since I'm not usually that emotional. I woke up this morning with an unusual sense of clarity and calm. We'll see how long that lasts. I have some thoughts I'll put down later. Back to work ...

[fisherman]

Thanks. Yesterday was just like Monday, emotions all over the place and without warning. It was very odd since I'm not usually that emotional. I woke up this morning with an unusual sense of clarity and calm.

What you have described is you working through this process. I can really relate to the way you have described it. The severity and frequency will become less and less over time.

Allow yourself to feel all of this, and then let it go. Try your best not to get caught up in analyzing the "why" of it all.

Embrace the clarity you have today and the next time you feel down and emotional just know that your clarity will soon return, and when it does, it will be more powerful than before.

[fisherman]

Mw,

This happened to me at certain times throughout all of this.

After a while you'll be able to recognize it for what it is, and anticipate that clarity coming back to you even stronger.

Look at it as having a growth spurt so to speak.