MJ- I never mind a "hijack." I did have an abnormally good night with H last night and it was after a day when I felt completely down and discouraged for whatever reason. I think I let a little thing throw me again.
To be honest, I don't feel so uncomfortable around H anymore. It is like we are roommates that get along well. He does not seem angry (outwardly anyway) at me anymore and also seems a lot more relaxed. Maybe because I am. I am trying my best to make home a "safe" place for him to be so he will feel okay to be here. And he also has not brought up anything remotely like R talk for months now, and I am steering well away from anything like that so that hasn't been an issue, fortunately. I would love to say that he must be confused and not know what he wants but at least a part of me thinks he is just comfortable now - I don't ask much, he comes and goes without answering to anyone, he really has no responsibilities at home (well, he takes none), etc. I am sure some would disagree with me for "letting" things be the way they are but I am trying to keep pressure off so he doesn't feel the need to head for the door.
Things are actually okay for what it is.
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I did have an abnormally good night with H last night and it was after a day when I felt completely down and discouraged for whatever reason. I think I let a little thing throw me again.
