Positive developments? #2

[jon2911]

Well, here we go. Yesterday she called and texted. I was busy, but called her back later. Her computer told her to contact tech support, and she said "you're my tech support, I'm calling you." There was a softness in the way she said that. Very different from the last few months. I tried to help but it turns out she needs a Windows CD. I offered to mail her mine, and she said she really appreciated it. I ran into issues getting it in the mail, called to apologize, and she said "taxes are due next Thursday, right? How about I come in, and we do them, then go to the State Fair?

I told her that would be great. So, my little hint dropped a week ago worked. State Fair should be a blast. It's Texas-OU weekend, they play at the Fair and it's always fun times here in Dallas.

Now that it's sinking in that she's coming, I'm scared to death. It's been so long. Had some guys over tonight to play music, and worked all day on the house to get ready. I've really let things go around here. Without W coming into town, it's hard to get motivated. But now my place feels nice, and I'm enjoying sitting here. I need to be confident and have a good time next week.

Last week I tore through "The Horse Whisperer". Wow. Highly recommended for everyone here. Several parts really got to me, especially where it says that we inflict the deepest pain on those we love the most. The daughter realizes that her silent treatment is really getting to her mother, who's always been buried in work before. At one point, she has a good day training the horse, and starts chatting with her mother about it. It feels like old times, and the mother tries to act nonchalant and not overreact. Then, the daughter remembers that she's supposed to hate her mom and not be nice, so she goes back to her old behavior.

Sound familiar to anyone? I can't take these rollercoaster swings any more, because the good times make me remember how much I miss my W. But i know it reminds her as well. We'll see what happens next.