you've gotten awesome advise, ditto on the above. I know each day is like a year and it weights heavy on your heart. But for your own good dont' hold your breath, this can take months...he does sound like a MLC, depressed and trying to fill that void with an OP (the not just friends book explains that nicely)
GAL and focus on yourself right now. About the anniversary, dont' have any expectations, plan something for that night with friends or something so you are not home sad thinking of it.
You'll do fine, there is always hope, patience is the key.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
