Aw, Lola. You didn't deserve this.I've found the hardest part of this is having no control. You were willing & able to fix your marriage. At least you know you really tried. You didn't bail prematurely because you couldn't be bothered to make the effort. I know our situations are completely different. But the piece that is making you sad is the same thing that bothers me. You loved him. You loved him enough to want to fix it. It meant something. You took the committment and responsiblity seriously. But these lousy men of ours that like the idea of a relationship/marriage, but don't know how to have or maintain committment to a partner. You're not only normal. You'd be odd if you weren't experienceing these emotions. One of my employees just found her husband has been cheating so she is just starting out on this trip. The other day she said, 'Men!. I just don't know why god made them.." {It's funnier in her accent} But that made me laugh. Although I can think of one reason..... I haven't been laid since Jan. 24th, the day I told what's his name about the cat. One step forward. Two steps back. Part of the journey that we're on. The one we never wanted to take. Hugs
