Who is this person?

[Day by Day]

I know I said that he seems to get angry when I avoid contacting him and probably this will make him angrier. Maybe he needs that. And maybe this is a 180 for me. I won't be falling all over myself to sign up to be rejected at every turn.

Maybe this wasn't too smart to lose the opportunity for communication, but I simply am afraid of being hurt even more. Maybe I disrespected him by leaving him hanging. I'm retreating and going to live my own life. I feel like I'm respecting myself. He needs to see that because he surely doesn't respect me.

I'm glad I have an IC appt schedule for tomorrow to go over with my own C. I still feel ok about not going.

When is he going to let go of the damn anger?! That repels ME.