For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

I did a good job tonight. : ) I was nice and playful with DD and even talked a little bit to H. We joked around just a little. Considering that I haven't said much of anything to him in 2 weeks, tonight was good.

I left around 7 and came back at 9. It's still sad that H doesn't seem to care about what I'm doing, but I put on a good fake job tonight. I was def. upbeat and I didn't say one word about what he was doing with DD.

DD did ask where I was going and I hesitated and said the store (which was the truth). I guess bc I paused for a second before answering her, H said, "lie." Not sure what that's supposed to mean. But, I'm not a liar. I went to Target and Kohls. I just don't need to tell him where I'm going.

Feeling better for now - if only I could sleep well. It's crazy how one day I can be totally down and in tears and the next day I feel good.