Journaling: Well this weekend went well. Didn't do much with the W. I had an event on Sunday that I took my kids to. That day my W got up early and put on her makeup so she looked like she was going out. When we returned home, I was surprised to find out that she just stayed home. She looked really depressed.
She doesn't have any close friends and just has her sister to be with. Must be an empty life. Probably which is why the OM was such a strong draw for her.
That night, we had a good time with the kids and as I stared at her, I noticed how thin she had become. It's odd how she's feeding her depression, and sees me as the root of it. Yet we have a good time together as a family, she even initiated conversation a few times.
Sunday night I took her car out to fill in gas as I saw she was low. Then on Monday while she was at work, she called me to thank me. She called me once, but I let it go to voicemail. She didn't leave a message, but called again about an hour later and left a message thanking me. First time she'd thanked me for something other than just dinner.
It's her mood swings that get to me. From friendly to cold all in the span of an hour. I don't know how WASs can not notice when they go through this.
Now though, I keep my guard up and stay friendly but not vested. I need to have "detach" tattooed on my arm somewhere.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
