The adventure chronicles

[AFWAW]

GH31,
Hope things are going well for you today. Read your post and funny thing is that now she's saying she only had sex w/ one man and that she was just in love w/ another man and she wanted to have sex with him but he wouldn't? WTF??? So, the lies continue. I don't know what the truth is and probably never will. I asked her why she told me there were 4 men and now only one. Her response was that she just wanted to hurt me and for me to let her go? She said she now realizes her mistake and wants to come home? WTF??? This is so unacceptable on so many levels. She has or had that little respect for me that she invents that she had affairs w/ 4 other men? I don't understand and I don't get why she has changed her mind and wants to come home especially when I see the way she interacts w/ my D and how pissed off my D is towards her. I like the new me and don't think she will allow the new me to continue if we were to get back together. She has stated that she wants our old marriage back. I told her I didn't. She has also made the statement that if I hadn't deployed, none of this would have happened. I said, so you're blaming this on me? She said, well, I would have done this stuff, I was just so overwhelmed. Can't we just have sex to see if there's still something there? don't u still love me? Can't we give it another shot?

Sigh, a large part of me wishes I wouldn't have waited so long to get a lawyer now and taken her up on her offer to divorce a few months ago. While I still love her, I can't go back to the way things were with her controlling @ss back in the house. I can't do it.