Honestly, I've gotten close. But, my kids are suffering and I have that tiny soft spot and he feels that door closing and comes barging through any way he can.
I have detached enough to feel totally ambivalent. Meaning, logistically, I realize that I may very well be better off without him, I am attached enough to the progress (however elusive it may seem) I am making on my own and I am not holding on to any conscious hope that we will reconcile.
The information about the GF pummeled me (and I met this date guy just an hour and a half after wiping tears from my eyes and breaking down)...I understand objectively what is happening but sometimes it just feels like the most surreal and unnerving experience and it is my life.
So, I take it as it comes. I am going to be in IC and starting a class soon that I am excited about. I am trying.
