Who is this person?

[Day by Day]

I'm supposed to be at the C's office. I'm not going.

I've been debating it all day whether to go. I'd rather deal with the consequences of not going rather than deal with being rejected and hurt anymore. H did not request to go to MC. This was my request and although he agreed, he is not of a reconciliatory attitude. I want to give up. I have no incentive to keep working on our M. No baby steps to have me feel I'm going in the right direction. He stopped replying to me after going to the C. So now I will go NC, but not because I want to cause a reaction. I want to do it for myself. I need to be without seeing or hearing him. I won't file for D though. He has to do all the work.