Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

I think I haven't moved over to the piecing forum b/c H is still very much in his MLC. The mixed signals, the moodiness, the depression.

Random thoughts:

Since this past weekend was a bust, H was to create our first weekly date and neither of us were in a place to go on a date...I asked H at lunch if he still wanted to plan the date for this week or if I should do it. H looked at me, surprised, and said he really hadn't thought about it...then mentionned something about this past weekend being bad(I felt he looked at me like it was my fault-I didn't react)..I said OK and didn't pursue the topic...

Not sure what'll happen on that (dating)front.

H did say last night he felt better than he had in days(meaning since our awful weekend)...so no more mention of anyone moving out..

H was reading my Marie Claire magazine and mentionned an interview with Hilary Swank( about her divorce) and said she stated a point he hadn't verbalized but agreed with- that getting divorced turns your whole world upside down and rips it apart-your relationships with family and friends all change. He looked at me and said "I've known you almost my whole life, at least 23 years..it is hard to imagine you not in my life". Not sure if he was thinking about still getting divorced or reminiscing about when he asked me for a divorce(5/18/09)...

H does feel disconnected from the girls. I think its split between them being teenagers and moving away from mom and dad and feeling betrayed by his leaving us. I know D12 hasn't forgiven H for leaving and has alot of anger towards him. D13 is preoccupied with her life, I think. She's closest to H.