Missing her

[RonD]

My situation is this: The last couple of years my marriage has been pretty empty; we were more like roommates than husband and wife. I'd ask her what was wrong, she'd say nothing everything is fine. Finally told her it wasn't fine for me, I felt there wasn't much left between us and she agreed. I said "What do we do now?" and she said "We should get divorced". I said OK, thinking that couldn't be worse than what we had (or didn't have) and 1 short week later the divorce was final. Took another week to get her packed and moved to her folks house.

I've regretted it ever since. We are on real friendly terms and see each other often. After reading DR my eyes were opened to a lot of the problems I brought to the marriage (depression, MLC) and I am starting counseling this Thursday. Told her I know I have problems, was willing to work on them and would like to work on getting back together, that I still love her and want her back home. She told me she worries that if we did, things would be better for a while then just go back to the same old thing. I asked if she would have considered counseling if I had asked and she said yes, and has indicated she would join in counseling if we were to reconcile.

So, what I'm getting is she needs to see positive changes on my part before she'll make any decision, and I understand and respect that. Trying to keep my spirits and hope alive and not push her; give her space she needs now.

Any success stories for a situation like mine and any advice? Right now I can't imagine a life without her.