I'm not going to sit here and tell you things are going to get better, or that you're a better person than you what you feel now, etc.
The fact is that we've all been there or are there with you in the trenches. But only you can get yourself out of it. We all get on the pity train more times than we can count, but then at some point, we decide when to get off.
Look at yourself in the mirror. What you see is an able bodied mother and woman who can and will do the things she needs to survive. And that's what this is. It's survival.
Imagine your H dead and gone. That's what he is anyway. What will YOU do to survive? It's like that scene in Gone with the Wind where Scarlett swears she'll never go hungry again. Well, that's what you need to adopt. That attitude.
It's your choice to get on the pain train, and it's also your choice to get off.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
