Don't worry - the down times always cycle back into good times. Just be patient and treat yourself well while you make your way through the process.
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I think I'm grieving the loss of hope that changes could happen that would make a difference for both of us in a healthy way.
Yep, that's the hard part - when you still care for someone but can never make it work. We each have our own realities and sometimes those can change into very different things that will never mesh.
Sorry you haven't connected with close friends yet. Sometimes it helps to just decide you're going to be outgoing and gregarious - acting as if. people respond. takes extra work on your part but it helps grow new friendships faster. Throw a dinner party and invite people you're interested in - a variety for good conversation.
I'd steer clear as much as possible from STBX. Learn a lesson from me - there's a time when the best thing you can do is cut things off instead of trying to be friends. Get the opportunity to heal on your own without the constant tug ...
