I guess I am normal. I was just sitting here, and this overwhelming sadness came over me. I really am having to fight back the tears. But it is a different kind of sadness...the acceptance of a marriage that could not be maintained, and the sadness for the woman who meant every word of her vows, and in the long run, it didn't matter. I always thought acceptance was supposed to make me feel better, but somehow there is this deep ache of loss, knowing that this is it. All the time I lived in limbo, and had no answers, I now have them. I know that I deserve better, and yet part of me still loves that stupid German.
This morning I felt relief. I still do, but it is coupled with a sadness that makes me want to cry. I have not cried over this in a long time, so I suppose I am a bit overdue...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
