Last night I had the blessing (and yes I realize it is a blessing) to have a "normal" H around for the most part. We were able to joke around a bit, I brought up an issue with S and he not only listened and engaged but stepped in to help with it. That is HUGE. For months - nothing. Now I feel like I can tell him about stuff like that and he does seem to listen, though really hasn't done anything to help out much. I still bring things up sparingly and it is nothing I can't handle myself (having done so for about a year now totally on my own) but they are things a dad should be involved with and he seems a bit more willing now.
Last night was enough to fill up my tank enough to keep going with a smile on my face. For today anyway. And yes I KNOW this is far from over but normalcy for a change was nice. And I do realize that I am fortunate.
I also came to the realization that I am not walking on eggshells so much around him anymore and relaxing more around him. I am not sure if that is the confidence I have in me or if it is because things are a bit better overall or both, but it is a good thing.
And yes I KNOW this is far from over but normalcy for a change was nice. And I do realize that I am fortunate.
