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[awest1217]

Today I am at home with sick S. Although on antibiotic, he has a 101 fever. H is really being nice. He was really sad yesterday which I believe Lolal warned me about so I am grateful for that because I expected it. We are very awkward around each other. I know it will take time to get to know one another again, and fuse us back together but he is being really helpful, and not talking or texting OW when I am around. (I know he is still texting her, but it is a huge step that he is devoting time to me and S when we are all home so I will take the baby step)

Because things are still awkward, but improving, I have not touched the subject about the note from his parents. After a few days passing, I think it might be a non-issue just because it was written in April when he first moved out, before I started to change, and H did not do a lot of what his parents wanted him to do (much like I did not do everything people told me to do). I will probably let him know I saw it, but wait until the right time.

Right now I am struggling with how much to push him. For example he was sad yesterday, and I let him know I was there and asked questions to see if I could help, but he didn't want to give me anything so I just left it alone. Also he is used to eating dinner at 7 or later (when OW would get off of work), but S cannot eat that late because he goes to be at 8 so S and I ate at 6, but H did not eat until 7:30, which although he sat with us when we ate, I felt like I was not providing because H just ate a microwaveable meal. I don't know if it bugged him, but he always said that I did not take care of him enough so I don't want him to feel like I am neglecting him for not making him dinner later. I don't know. I am still standing strong and feeling really good about me.

I think my new motto is, I can control myself and S, but what H does is not in my control so no worries.