I did it. Prepared the paperwork yesterday, and stuck them in the mail. There is this sense of relief that I cannot even begin to explain. I loved this man, and committed my life to him, but he broke that committment. I tried to resolve the situation and ended up growing up a lot, making changes that I needed to make, and came out a better person in the long run. I will take those changes with me. He will not.

I know now that for me, DBing was making sure I did everything I possibly could do to save my M. I can sleep at night knowing that I did not give up when the going got tough, but he did. And somewhere along the line, I was able to put it behind me. I said some things that probably weren't very nice, but it was okay because by that time, he deserved it. Now, I cherish the time I had with him, when he was my H, and realize that it was just not meant to be.

I am happier, healthier, stronger.

And I will drink to that!!!

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..