Newbie (again)

[dday101798]

LOL!

I think I gave my cousin a heart attack yesterday. When I got home, she was next door talking with the neighbor and enjoying a few beers.

When she came back later on, there I was sittin gon the patio as normal, having my 'got through the day cigarette', but...

"WTF is that?" she asks. 'Huh?'. "In your hand, wtf is that!?!". 'A soda'. hehe. I explained it was time for some changes, must have went on deaf ears as I was making dinner and she asked if I wanted a beer (test maybe?). Declined.

And finally heard from the boys for the first time since last week. Sounds as if they didn't go to school yet again yesterday and spent the day in loserville. When I asked S12 if he went to school, he was skiddish to answer. S11 upon getting on the phone asked if the school calls me when they are absent.

XW was on a tirade as normal in the background. And as normal, it was coming upon 8:30 and they had yet to eat dinner.

Both however said they want to just stay 'home' with me this weekend and not doing anything lavish. What's up with that? But, I think the motive is to conserve cash so we can do something during the week as we used to. All I could say was, well, that depends on your mother.

Kinda getting to really look forward to seeing the shrink, but can't push myself to make the call. I'm sick of every other thought being about all this.