It's crazy, but it will help me through the day and that is all that matters right now.
Yesterday, when leaving mediation, my W took a wrong turn. She called me because she said the GPS on her phone wasn't working and didn't know where to turn to get back to the hwy. I gave her directions and we said good bye. She could have called anyone, but she called me. Granted, I was on the same trip and had just made the turn myself, so it was a logical choice to call me, but she still called me rather than her parents a friend or anyone else. Then she did stop home to get her Jersey for the football game, she was looking very nice.
I said good bye when she left and she said good bye...nothing more than saying goodbye to a friend, but it was coordial.
So even though I am feeling jealousy today, for no apparent reason, I chose to be hopeful and continue with the DB plan. I will let her go, because I really do want her to be happy. If that isn't with me, I will be terribly sad and take a long time to move on; but at this point, it is the best I can do.
Keep praying, I am praying for all of you and I know you are praying for me.
