Had I known when she kicked me out....

Give me a schedule when to pick up kids and how much do you need a month. Bye

I would've been a lot better!

My days are better when I don't hear from her, i keep tricking myself into she's sane and hurting and she isn't sane.

The best part of that email I sent her is I now have a schedule as to when I can see the kids.

The control part, yep I hosed myself, I keep stepping into a darn mine field and all I want is out of it.