My gut reaction to ALL that you have written is that you need to look up DETACHMENT on this site and read it carefully, more than once. You are driving yourself crazy with wondering why your h is going to the doctor (Who cares unless he's dying in which case HE will tell you) and texting him after HE left you a rude message and you already told him why....enough.
It's coming off as grovelling. Please, I don't mean to slap you silly but you must detach or you'll never survive this pace...let alone restore the M...
Do you understand the whole concept of detachment? What bothers you about it?
J-
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
