he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

so my court date is this wednesday. seems weird, im not nervous, just feel weird. tomorrow is my son's birthday, h is coming in the afternoon. it will be weird to see him tomorrow and then in court. maybe it will all hit him when we are in court. or maybe not.

i really hope to be awarded some money! i think its time! and i need health insurance! i need to go to the dr for my shingles pain, still suffering from it. and my son needs insurance, dont u think?

im doing well, all things considered..i like to think im totally over it but i was at a hockey game this weekend and certain things will trigger a memory, and its upsetting. i can though separate being upset for what once was from being upset and wanting him back, because i know i dont want him and couldnt want him.