(((((Bunny)))))

It's both, I think. You will always love him. It's just the way it is. Doesn't mean you can, or should, be married to him.

And we all have our egos, and don't like to "fail". Even if we didn't do anything remotely related to fail, it still feels that way.

You are normal, Bunny. Your feelings are normal. It's ok.