Looks like I might soon be LBS...newcomer here

[brownidmom]

Hi, all!

I haven't been in hiding, just lurking and GALing. Work has been crazy, but TO MY SUPRISE, H and I are doing a better job of communicating. No R talks, but H is definitely being nicer, more engaging. I have been trying not to read too much into that since I know it could just mean that he is trying to show me more respect around the boys.

After that last bit with him talking to the boys, I casually mentioned to him that he shouldn't be saying anything about me to the boys that he wasn't absolutely sure about, that it wasn't fair to bring them into this.

I was coming down the stairs the other morning and heard H's cell buzzing, incoming e-mail or text, and told him. H said it was probably somebody else calling to tell him they were getting a D. I inquired and he said he knows a lot of people whose marriages are breaking up. I didn't ask any more questions and he sounded somewhat sad at the whole thing. I thought I should leave him with those feelings, knowing how hard of a thing that must be to go through.

Today, after finishing up homework and while H was running an errand, S8 says to me that H must have just been angry at me when he was saying those things about me to them in the car because this morning while taking them to school, H said, "I love my wife." I must have had a befuddled look on my face because he shook his head and said to S6, "S6, didn't he say that this morning?" S6 shook his head and said yes.

Then S8 was sitting next to me listening to his MP3 with songs H downloaded for him and one was the song H sang to me at our wedding reception. I told S8 that his dad sang it to me when we got married and we each listened with one bud while I got teary-eyed.

Not sentimental, I STILL LOVE HIM!!!

Hmmmmmm, even if he isn't going to say it to me anytime soon, at least he is trying to make it right with our sons.

Definitely a good step in the right direction.

So, when H came home and walked past, I noticed how great his butt still is, always has been, but I allowed myself to check it out and smile.


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