I did ok during the weekend, but I was working. A guy from work asked me out....freaked me out a bit cuz I found myself liking the attention. No, I do not even like this person, but I think I didn't care....I was just internally, subconsciously enjoying the feeling that if I wanted, the guy would pursue me full force. Ok that sounds very high on myself...I'm not....the guy is just being very obvious. He is not the type I would go for anyways. He doesn't know I'm divorced and he is still pursueing me. Haven't really said anything at work about all this.
Anyways, point being....I freaked myself out a little. Today was a day off and I slept in, spoke to a friend on the phone, and took a nap. Had a dream I was sleeping on the couch with exH like we used to do...SIGH....NOT GOOD!
Haven't heard a peep from him in a week or so. I feel angry again today. I hope I get over this. I turned my phone off and just left it in the bedroom. I keep looking at it as if magically he is going to know I have a day off and call...why would he. He wants this distance and he doesnt want to be responsible for checking in with me. OK...enough venting.
On the up side....I went out for dinner Friday night after work with a few friends from work and totally enjoyed myself. Its really nice to do that once in a while. And I am doing well at work, which is another plus right now. Also, my dad is finally STARTING to recover from his prostate surgery. Because he has has radiation in the past, his recovery pattern is different...longer, but he is improving and in good spirits. Both my siblings are happy and doing well in their marriages and at work.
I have a lot to be thankful for. I will focus on this and tonight I will start my studying for that test I have mid November! Starting today!
