Thanks, Mark, that's about what I got from DR. I had asked her if she would have gone to counseling had I asked before the divorce and she said yes; she seems to want to stay in a holding pattern for now until I show some effort and change which I fully understand. Thankfully this forum is here; I don't have much of a support group and this helps a ton. And getting the help I need is my priority right now, along with the kids.