So, I feel....jumbled & sad....but better too. Once again I feel like I've made a decision. I feel like it's over; it can't be fixed. I just want to start healing. Hanging out with you really jerks on my emotions. I feel horribly sad and confused; I hurt. I end up turning to you because I hurt, wanting to make the hurt go away for both of us....but instead I feel like I am prolonging the hurt.
At this point I do not wish to date. I would like to move forward with the bankruptcy and file divorce immediately afterwards. I think we should discuss what the plan is for Brooke and set some goals as far as finances go. Who pays for what etc.
I love you. I always will. I still feel that I am not "in love" with you and I don't see that changing. I'm exhausted from the emotional roller coaster....and I am sorry I can't seem to change how I feel, and I can't seem to make myself want to
I do not know what to do. I feel emotionally beaten to a pulp.
