My gut (as well as my discussions with my W) tells me that without my W wanting to work on the M/R, there is no marriage. As of now, nothing is happening that benefits our M/R. If I leave everything as-is and just do nothing, my gut tells me that she will continue to cake-eat and I will continue to grow on my own through all that I read and my therapy sessions. My W and I will continue to drift apart, and my kids continue to see the destruction that my W is causing on all of us. My gut (and my head) tells me to let her go, the sooner the better, and I am codependent with her and I am addicted to her. My heart tells me to save the M/R because I want my old life with her back, but I know that she isn't coming back now that she's embarked on her MLC process. My gut tells me that I need some time away from her so that I can heal. Just being around her is hindering and slowing my own growth.
I actually haven't forced her into a corner. She is initiating the divorce because of her emotional outbursts. I am simply letting it happen, and even telling her I welcome it. She is choosing the timing of it. It is her decision.
Me:49 W:49 M:26.5 years S21, S17 Bomb: around 2004 ILYBINILWY EA: 07-2009
