Well, as co incidence would have it, me and the kids finally found a puppy we all like and are due to pick him him Tues or Weds. That`ll keep them distracted through the start of this next phase.
I am doing ok. Going biking was the very best thing I did for myself yesterday. Had a little self indulgent weep along the way but could also get stuck into admiring the countryside.M
Meditated too which really helps anchor me.
Get ferociously tired though when stress hits so got to bed early. H is showing signs of stress too-went out last night. I honestly believe he just goes for a drive and maybe phones his family during those times. And heard him walking about the house at 2 am so not sleeping either.
In the midst of all this I keep hoping he`ll change his mind and agree to work on the M with me. But he`s not raising my hopes.
Hope is a killer right now.
Anyway, I`m prepped for tomorrow.Have decided to let the meeting unfold what it may. I will be calm, and dignified throughout. I have xanax to take after should the outcome be cery stressful as I will need to present to work afterwards and don`t need to be a basket case for that. Will also take notes.
I know its important to hold onto my changes when the going gets tough so I`ll stay as close as possible to the calm new me throughout.Don`t need to be morphing back into the shrew I was at this point!
Cat, regarding DBing after, I`ll hold the changes though I cant see that it would be good to hold onto the hope that H will look my way again.I expect to move on myself at that point.
Thanks friends, for your thoughtful posts and support.
I feel blessed that DBing has brought me this place too.
