My only goal today is to release my anger on the 1.5 hour drive to the mediator. When I get there, be the me she knew 15 years ago, or even 5 years ago.
I'm going to dress well, I bought my old cologne (ironically it is Eternity) and look my best.
I will be friendly, but direct, fair and honest when it comes to the financials and our kids. I won't beg, ask her to change her mind, etc... I will ask questions about the process of the attorney, etc...
Basically, whatever I want to do, I will do the exact opposite.
Wow, this is going to be tough; but after reading many of the stories here and venting on this thread and listening to all of your advice, I will be able to do it.
When I leave and am in my car on the way back, I will take a moment to completly breakdown and cry, scream and let out my anger and sadness. Then I will come home, get the kids from school and focus on being a good dad for the next two days before I have to leave again.
I will have the house clean, laundry done and things in order when she returns Wednesday.
I'm going to make plans to see some friends later this week and next weekend. I'm going to enjoy my time away from my family, not wallow in pitty.
Now, all I have to do is believe everything I just wrote :-)
