I agree its H's rejection that is most painful. It just pure pain at times. Then once you have let it out you pick yourself up and find a new happy place, hopefully a bit better than where you were before. Its a tough week for you. Just do what you need to do to get through it. Can you get a bunch of extra movies etc for your kids so you can time out for yourself should the need to do so arise?
I think you have made such positive changes by DBing that they will stay with you but understand that you may feel less inclined to direct towards your H. To me, there is not much he will see or listen to until he is ready to really look your way again.
You have conducted yourself so well in such dificult situations, don't underestimate your strength and grace under fire. Thats the stuff you will carry with you for you and your kids.
Now go get chocolate, ice cream or whatever you should have filled the house with and go hard!
