So - don't know how I'm feeling today ... a bit ambivalent about everything I guess. I don't know if this is the beginning of true detachment or whether I am just too tired to care right now.
I have had an exhausting day at work and, listening to other people's 'problems' which can't even hold a light to your own, is so frustrating! There they are, weeping and wailing over nothing and I just want to scream, "d'ya wanna swap problems because I would HAPPILY take yours right now". Professionalism over-rules, thank goodness!
Got a really nice compliment from one of my colleagues today and felt so chuffed. I realised that was the first positive thing that someone has verbalised to me in about 6 months. I valued the message and validated her kindness for giving me such lovely feedback. It later became painful as I realised that it took a stranger to make me feel good about myself, instead of it being H, who's job I feel that it is. How sad is that?
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
