I tried to call in to work tomorrow, since I'm not at all sure I can make it through a whole day after spending the weekend so sick with the flu. However, my boss told me she needs my paperwork asap, definitely Monday morning, and there was no one to cover me so I really have to come in. Maybe someone could come by the afternoon and help me.

Okay, sure. I'm far less important than my paperwork and paying a registry nurse twice what I make to cover. I'm 53, have a history of asthma, have the flu--and work in public health, where my health is not a concern.

So wtf is the point anyway? My only value is what I do, not who I am. I'm alone and isolated and don't even have someone I can call to go pick up a bottle of ibuprofen for me when I'm too sick to drive. I am invisible, truly. I've just hit the wall.


M60
H52
D20
M14 yrs
OW-old gf from 1986
bomb-5/18/08
H filed for D-9/10/08
D final 4/24/09
xH remarried (not OW) 2012